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The biggest party of the year is just around the corner but this year I am not enthused. I know scores of people will end up in emergency wards worldwide and even at the quietest parties, some dumb and someone dumber will get into a fight before the night is over.

Who chose December 31 as the last day of the calendar year? Why does it have to be such a big celebration? Another thing. What’s with the resolutions? Are you saying you’re seriously going to change yourself just because it’s a new year? If I see something that needs changing, I’ll change it then and there:the expressions on my face, seasonings in a dish I have prepared, a light bulb , a dress, the colour of my lipstick and many times the contents in my handbag;  that’s the range of my immediate list and I don’t need to wait until January!

I realize that a new year is but inevitable but honestly have never been a huge fan of it.  Call me anything but that’s a fact. I always feel more sad than optimistic.  When I was younger, I think it was mostly because the cheer and thrill of Christmas was over and school was starting soon.  As an adult, my New Year’s melancholy is usually due to either lack of plans or lack of reality matching expectations.  Sure, I had some fun years partying with friends or having that “dream date” on the “dream night.”  Usually though, I was out somewhere feeling like I should be having a much better time for the money I’d spent and the emotional investment I’d put into the evening.

Believe it or not I’m an underdog person.  While everyone else cheers wildly in anticipation of the New Year, I’m feeling sorry for the old. In my view, everyone is too eager to move the clock hands.  Unfortunately, for me, this most obvious symbol of the passage of time generates a golf ball sized lump in my throat.  The years go by too fast now.  Am I being a tad over melodramatic?  January has always been my worst month mood-wise, lost my Dad in January. When I was little, my dad used to say, “I wish you could have stayed five years old.”  I always thought he was joking.  Now I realize he was at least half-serious. Now I wish I had stayed a five-year old, he would have been still around.

Many people look forward to the New Year for a new start on old habits.  I look at it as another chance to perfect the old habits. I am always at peace with my vices and at war with my virtues and neighbors and I haven’t yet found an amicable way of changing it. However, for those of you who have discovered ways to reconcile your resolutions I wish you joy and never ending New Years to resolve all your thoughts, wishes and actions.

So, here’s a toast to all of you to a grand entry into the second decade of the 2000s. May your lives be filled with the hectic blend of health, heart, happiness and harmony.

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