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New Year’s is a harmless annual institution, of no particular use to anybody save as a scapegoat for promiscuous drunks, and friendly calls and humbug resolutions…Mark Twain

It’s that time again …another year about to turn and usher in a new digit, newer trials interspersed with moments we call joy and happiness. I can almost smell the holly and mistletoe, cookies and cinnamon rolls, hear the tinkle of silver bells on sleighs as Santa readies to fill the socks.
The past year was the proverbial mixed bag. I have become a little bit braver, yet more anxious. Definitely kinder, I have learnt to reach out my hand despite many trepidations. A year wearier, but a lot more accepting and trusting in God’s ways. However, am I wiser? If it means that the simple things still thrill me then yes I am. If it means waking up to fixed realities and accepting them as a part of life, then again I am. I see beauty in imperfections, in making false moves and taking wrong turns, in losing my way and asking for directions. My mistakes keep repeating themselves with uncanny precision and regularity and where would I be without this constant and loyal elf? In a sterilized, stereotype world buffing my nails and wondering where the next right was coming from! What an odious thought!

I have abandoned the idea of making resolutions since they never meet their purpose. Instead, I have decided to reflect and not be resolute. My constitution does not agree with most resolutions and finds them meaningless, boring, mundane and plain stupid. I have accepted that LIFE IS A LOPSIDED MIX OF THE FAIR AND UNFAIR AND NO MATTER WHAT YOU RESOLVE IT HAPPENS EXACTLY IN THE MANNER YOU DON’T WANT IT TO. I chose to call these reflections MOMENTS. My 2009 moments were astonishingly diverse and some terribly fulfilling.

MOMENT No.1: I have been initiated and inducted to the FACEBOOK list of fame. This was a huge event since I am lazy when it comes to social networking. Having said that I must say it is a delight to have connected with many. My knowledgeable aunt started the tradition of WORD TWIST and now I am hooked. It can be so destructive. Never felt so good after destroying, must be close to what those Greeks and Romans felt after a great day of rampage and plunder.

MOMENT No.2: Reconnected with the St Xavier’s Alumni Association in Delhi. Memories flooded back. Eerie…like going back to a world that now seems never existed…yes it was that good. It is a universal truth that the past always looks good from the point of view of the present.

MOMENT No.3: Watched some great films thanks to TORRENT DOWNLAOD. Never knew all this was possible. This is a great moment; I have self proclaimed that I have earned the status of being net savvy or is it tech-net-savvy? Whatever it is, I am that now.

MOMENT No.4: Understood the bliss of ALONENESS. Nature and other factors notwithstanding, you cannot win all the time and funnily neither do you lose even if you would like to (this holds especially true when the case in point is your weight!). You are brutally let down by some while others find you indispensable and irresistible. You are loved, hated, missed and dismissed though not all at once and  in varying degrees and stages of emotions. You are either part of the crowd or standing watching from the outside. You are insecure, you are afraid, you feel used and mostly left confused. However, in all this, you are never alone. Suddenly you realize you want to be alone, you do not want the clutter. This is when you reach the plateau called BY YOUSELF. Here you are at the vantage that allows you to watch the world pass by without being an active part of it. I get furious when people trespass or disturb my area of ALONE.

MOMENT 4: The final moment that needs to be mentioned is a new mania I have acquired: blogging. After the initial hesitation, I took flight. Look at me now, almost a Frankenstein, monstrously eager to write my next post. Moreover, I am not (yet) curbing my enthusiasm.

There many other moments that have happened, are still happening or about to happen. Lessons have been learnt, hearts have been hurt and forgiven, and the long good byes have been said until we meet again. I thank all of you for making these moments for me: good and bad, happy and sad. Happiness is too many things these days for anyone to wish it on anyone lightly. I do not want to wish you a happy New Year but wish the New Year lots of happiness because it has all of you in it.

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